PATIENCE

If you pray to God for 'patience' (like I do), don't be surprised to find yourself in a situation where your patience is being put to test. Such as waiting on the phone line for nearly an hour until your neck and ear are really sore just to find out that you have to be transfered to another department and there will be another half an hour wait PLUS end up having to talk to a very unpatient and unkind operator of immigration. Arrgghh... it's not a nice experience, it ruins your day.

Living out a christian life just not easy. It's not nice when you are in a process of being shaped into His likeness. For me, living a life itself is not about the outcome (how well you are right now, how content, how blessed), but more to how you undergo each process believing that He'll carry you through good and bad situations.

I can see my life is very hard right now, sometimes I doubt His sovereignty. Then I thought to myself, why am I doubting Him now after being a christian for so long? Why am I questioning His power over every event in my life? ................................. Then I realised that it is because I want things happen my way, what I desire, what I want and what I need; instead of what God sees fit and best.

However, I thank Him that He has put me in situations where it is absolutely difficult to trust His power and might right at this moment, so that in such way that I can practice my faith in Him. Just pray that I cling to His guidance, though I won't be strong enough to do it on my own, may God's strength be with me.