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MY WEEKEND

My "eventful & surprising" weekend:

Met my ex-colleague at a wedding last Saturday. Funny, I always seemed to bump into her at weddings, we made sure that we exchanged numbers this time :)

On Sunday, a couple of friends and I, we had the privilege to minister through music and song at a neighbor church and I met my friend back in college days 10 years ago! Funny I still remembered her name (while she didn't quite with mine)...somehow it popped in my head as soon as I saw her face, I even surprised myself knowing how bad I am with names?! We exchanged numbers also. Well she hasn't changed much, except she's now a Christian (praise the Lord!) and looking great and only recently got hitched *congrats :)

My lost ring found me (spooky!) in some way that no one could ever anticipate. When I came home, I tuned in to 103.2 FM Open House, again was reminded that our God is absolutely in control of everything in this universe, even in every single tiny detail of our lives, as small as my ring? Nothing has happened by chance.

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father."
(Matt 10:29)

Before I went home last night, I had my 1.5 hour relaxing massage! Look, that fact is...it's too great that I can't begin to put into words...I really don't know how! Ok lets try some keywords: cold rainy day, rain forest, aroma therapy, waterfall, warm, music, relaxin'............... felt fantastic!

Guess who I found sitting on my bedside as I walked in my room last night, .....my new beddy buddy!!! Thank you Tris & Joan for the beautiful birthday pressie, loving it =). It's a microwavable doggy (poor doggy haha) with lavender hint to keep me feeling soothed and warm this winter, he's currently sitting on my laps :)))

HE KEEPS THE KEY

Is there some problem in your life to solve,
Some passage seeming full of mystery?
God knows, who brings the hidden things to light.
He keeps the key.

Is there some door closed by the Father's hand
Which widely opened you had hoped to see?
Trust God and wait - for when He shuts the door
He keeps the key.

Is there some earnest prayer unanswered yet,
Or answered NOT as you had thought 'twould be?
He will make clear His purpose by and by.
He keeps the key.

Have patience with your God, your patient God,
All wise, all knowing, no long lingerer He,
And of the door of all your future life
He keeps the key.

Unfailing comfort, sweet and blessed rest,
To know of EVERY door He keeps the key.
That He at last when just He sees is best,
Will give it THEE.

(taken from Streams in the Desert - 366 Daily Devotional Readings by L.B. Cowman and edited by James Reimann)

THANK YOU...

Eating lunch at my desk at the moment and thinking I'm not gonna have nice lunch like this again for a long while. This has to be the best lunch ever by mum! I'm sad because she has to leave tonight after spending a couple of months with us here. Going to miss her very much and pretty sure I will have a good cry tonight. It'll be so hard to get up the next morning and not seeing her around, no one to share with and no food to eat. Fred and I have been spoilt during mum's stay I reckon. So thanks mum! (I know she won't be reading this... I wished she could! But no I'll tell her myself).

Mum = my angel from God above

Till next time we meet! Sayonara...

MY GRASS IS GREENER?

I have lately been exposed to alot (!) of depressing news and facts of life. So many people out there going through tough and rough experiences in life which only them know how much pain they have to bear to get through just another day.

When I have to go through painful moments I always feel sorry for myself and thinking that they are the worst of all, and at times start to question God whether He still loves me the same? In fact, I mean looking at other people and their circumstances - I think God has been more loving day after day, year after year toward me. I'm not saying God then doesn't love others more because their circumstances are worse than mine, but He just knows (above anything/one else) how much one can bear, and He definitely knew how much was enough for me.

My heart just goes out to those who are experiencing terrible terrible conditions and problems. With all that I had to go through I think it just made me more and more able to emphatise with others, although mine weren't as bad as theirs. It must be hard!

Another encouragement for me though - seeing believers who have to face difficulties in life yet standing strong in the Lord, it makes all the differences.

If there were no God - I think I would be all lost and depressed, don't we all think the same?

So to all of you out there - don't get discouraged when things are not working out well and if you are hurting - know that you are just gonna be made stronger and wiser through it all - and most of all you'll just be one step closer to knowing our Creator for who He really is!

2007

How's everybody? Happy New Year 2007, everyone! Hope it's still not too late for the wish. Counting God's every blessing in my life - which is never-ending. "So Lord, I thank You for 2006 and keep leading me in 2007 as You always will."

Today I had lunch with Mavis, we had a great time sharing and encouraging one another, which is always a pleasure. Work is pretty busy, it's only my first week back in the office. It was kinda weird coming back to my desk again after a short 2 week break, not that anything had changed around here though. Anyway, it took me a while to swing back in. It's still another month before I'm taking my holiday again :P, it just wasn't long enough! Fred and I will be holidaying to Indo in Feb for 3 weeks, going to be spending Chinese New Year there with family and friends.., and seeing my nephew for the very first time, REALLY LOOKING FORWARD!

BETTER THAN I

Better Than I

i thought i did what's right
i thought i had the answers
i thought i chose the surest road
but that road brought me here

so i put up a fight
and told YOU how to help me
now just when i have given up
the truth is coming clear

YOU know better than i
YOU know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For YOU know better than i

if this has been a test
i cannot see the reason
but maybe knowing i dont know
is part of getting through

i try to do what's best
and faith has made it easy
to see the best thing i can do
is put my trust in YOU

for YOU know better than i
YOU know the way
i've let go the need to know why
for YOU know better than i

i saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
i saw a bird and thought that i could follow
but it was YOU who taught that bird to fly
if i let you reach me will YOU teach me?

for YOU know better than i
YOU know the way
i've let go the need to know why

i'll take what answers YOU supply...
YOU know better than i


PS. such a great song... love it! :)

CHECKIN'

Does my blog load properly on everyone's screen? On mine, some bits aren't showing! Grrr...

Just wondering...

Do you guys eat because you are hungry OR do you eat because it's lunch/dinner time? I get guilty conscience whenever I skip my lunch/dinner times just because I'm not hungry. Do you get that kind of feeling?

Now it's waaaayyy past lunch time (1:33pm) and I have these mixed feelings of being not hungry, having no appetite and not knowing what to eat... AND (of course) feeling guilty!

H-O-W

Right now... I have absolutely nothing to do at work. I'm kinda bored and it's hot out there, 35 degree celcius to be exact. On top of that, I have not been feeling well for the past 2 weeks, I get hayfever during Spring, my body aches and right now it's feeling numb. Sometimes I am not quite sure whether I'm sick or not, tend to erase the thought of being sick, unless it's really really that kind of sickness when you really really need to see a doctor?

Earlier, I got to read an article called "Remaining Teachable". Often there's point in life when we think we've known enough about things that we need to know. But the fact is, no matter how intelligent a person is, there's always more to learn. No one has all the answers to everything, that belongs to God.

I especially like this acronym: H-O-W stands for Honesty, Open-mindedness and Willingness. It's ok not to have all the answers, it's better to have questions, and remain teachable.

LOOKING FORWARD TO:

• Parents' visit next month - no one like family, really!
• Canberra trip on Monday - 11 of us going - 3 cars - pretty big group (it's our Young-Workers-Bible-Study group).
• Receiving news from DIMIA - whether my PR will be granted - I want to go back to Medan to visit my whole family and a new member, my intelligent adorable nephew. *gregetan...

"SUNDAY GETAWAY"

Sunday afternoon in front of the computer blogging! I really wished to be in bed right now napping my Sunday arvo away. But I just can't do that yet because I just stuffed myself with food which happened to be my lunch by the way. And it's also my weekend habit (Sunday especially) - snacking, all I want to do is eat! That should answer why I hardly get skinnier these days! Not that I was ever very skinny anyway hehe. Ah... it doesn't really matter in the end... does it?

Went to SCCCA yesterday, I always find it a priviledge everytime I get a chance to be equipped biblically and this time it was about ministry. 2 things about ministry: first...prayer is the key, second...ministry is difficult, do we give up when it gets tough? More details, I've got them all in my notes, hopefully will have the time to type it up and share. Those were the two talks (morning and afternoon). For the workshops I picked "music ministry" (so predictable huh?!) and "self-image (women only)". In the music ministry workshop I got picked on to sight-read a music (thanks to Oscar??), luckily it wasn't that hard, pheww. Self-image - well, seeing alot of other fellow women going through/facing the same struggles every woman struggles on was kinda awesome. It was a very openly discussion and I thought it's great, certainly learnt stuff from alot of sharing, thoughts and honesty about the issue of self-image when it comes to women. Now I truly understand the 'how' and the 'why' to dress! :P

Today we did our first music development class for this batch with some of the girls from Remaja. I didn't do much today, just being there and be a helper. At the same time, I know that it seems like I've done and heard this a million times, but somehow never get tired to get in some more into my head and heart of the true meaning & purpose of music ministry and why so we praise and worship God. Also to have gone to the music ministry workshop yesterday, alot have sunk in and made me more abundant in my knowledge, not just knowledge, but understanding, not just understanding, but my whole-being to fully serve Him in His truth with the gift of music. On the technical side of it - some of the girls who had done last batches came back for this batch, and we could just notice how much they've grown in their vocal abilities, they project their voice better, they've grown in their confidence, their breathing's got better and stable - it's a joy to watch and observe! So it's all great... it's like you've planted seeds and they grow... But by the end of the day, today I came home realising that it's God who has worked in His ways, we are just instruments to bring about God's purpose in those individuals, He is the One who gives growth. So praise God!

Ok, now my stomach feels less full... so maybe I should just take off to my "getaway destination"... it's called the lala land.

RE: GOOD....

It happened again! Around the same time, almost like a week ago! 10:20AM today!

Me: "....same thing I said last time...." [in my mind I was like... "Eerrggghhh!"]

The other end: "Ohh.. that's a wishful thinking, {laughter}... I know it's Friday.. {more laughter}."


Weekend symptom!

Y-T-T

Yesterday someone caught me in a bad timing when he told me a bad news while I was kinda in a bad mood, so basically it didn't help! I got really upset and wrote back an email with strong words about the particular news. My patience is being tested, and I think I'm done putting up with people's irresponsible being. Please!

Today my 2 students are sitting for their theory exams. Two very different students indeed. Truly wish them the very best! As a teacher, I could only do that much, the rests are their hardwork. Being a music teacher for more than 3 years now, I can confidently say that it's been an interesting journey of learning and experience. All my students have been so unique in their own ways, good and bad, they've taught me lessons too. Anyway, the rest of the infos are confidential...

Tomorrow... who would really guess, though one thing I know, Jesus holds my hand with great promise! I've got a plan for next year which is particularly looking like a hard process, if God wills, it will happen. If not, then I know God has a much bigger plan for my life.

GOOD....

Hillarious phone conversation @ 10:50 AM today:

Me: "Good after... uh.., good morning, TCF services Jenny's speaking."

The other end: "Hi, good evening!"

THE CALL

How do you know God is calling you?

Inward call:

• Through Holy Spirit - God speaks to those He has called.
• Those He has called know it by: sense of leading, purpose and growing commitment.

External call:

• God uses the congregation to call out the called to ministry.
• As a family of faith, take responsibility to encourage those whom God has called to respond to that call with joy and submission.

Do you sense that God is calling you to ministry, whether as pastor or another servant of the Church?

Do you burn with a compulsion to proclaim the Word, share the Gospel, and care for God's flock?

Has this call been confirmed and encouraged by those Christians who know you best?

God still calls . . . has He called you?

HOW CAN THEY SEE JESUS, IF NOT IN YOU AND ME

I recall a song by Steve Curtis Chapman, something titled "Jesus lives in me", ...must have posted the lyrics somewhere in here. It's just a great reminder of how we live as we confidently claim ourselves as God's children and that He lives within us for all other to see.

HECTIC LIFE n I NEED GOD

Looking at my daily schedules, I wonder how I have managed it all so far, it's been quite tough. I work 9-5 in the office, and teach almost every night; leaves me with a couple of hours to relax before going to bed. In a week or two, I'm going to start a part-time work from home as part of the assignment from work place. Sometimes or if not lately, I wonder if I've become a workaholic person (I always view this as a negative thing). Before it was like 'study study study' for me, now it's 'work work and work' day and night. But still... thanking God for every opportunity. Pray that I won't let busyness get in the way of my relationship with God.

ROAD OF LIFE

Maybe I can relate to this picture which I found a while ago, quite interestingly representing my life (perhaps yours too). I'm such a broken instrument in this world yet He loves and wants to use for His purposes.

JOURNEY IN BALI (17-25TH JUNE 2006)

Felt like I was just packing up my summer clothes and all the goodies, looking forward and being excited about the trip to Bali, ...and now it's all past and done! Loved this trip, one of the best, short but long... it felt really long because it was full of activities in every second of it, yet short for only 8 days.

Flash back...

It was one freezing cold Saturday morning dated 17.06.06 when Victor and Ipung drove me to the airport, but inside me was all warm and excited, as you would imagine, having a holiday (well sort of) after a long time. It was unexpected to see all my great mates turning up at the airport one after another to send me off.... eerrr nah, I would fool myself. As a matter of fact, they were there to wish our beloved and most dearest friend Victor Layata a.k.a Viclay, a wonderful journey ahead in Bali as he left us for good this time. We (Vera, Vic and I) were leaving on the same plane (my first time flying with Garuda), it didn't feel like a good-bye as yet, still had another week to spend it with Vic in Bali, so I wasn't all overwhelmed at that time...




I arrived in Bali on the same day in the afternoon at roughly 1pm Bali time (2 hours later than Sydney). First impression? - *Yes I'm going to love this!* Bali is a GORGEOUS city indeed. You can just feel the warmth of the people there. Talking about warmth, weather was excellent, it was warm at probably around 25-28 degree celcius across the week, not sticky as I suspected... it was beautiful, like Nike - it's just right! However you don't get this kind of weather often, it only happens during winter time in Australia, Bali's somehow affected by the low temperature, otherwise it could be like a normal Indo weather, hot and sticky... ewww...

I was invited to stay at Vera's house for the first 2 nights before checking in to the hotel for music camp. After settling our luggages at home, we ordered lunch and ate together. This is what we did straight after - Vera asked me if I would like to go to a hairdresser and I was like.., "Great idea! Haven't had my hair done for months...". Off we went, went to this Japanese hairdresser called Anzhu, and they actually speak Indo. I had never encountered a Japanese who could speak Indo quite reasonably, although with some accents. Anyway... they offered this Japanese massage service and I thought 'GREAT! Just what I needed.' So we had our hair done, in between they served us some good 'head, upper back, hands' massages, I fell asleep, so good...

WITH THE LAYATAS

Late Monday morning, I checked-in at the hotel where the music camp was going to be held at, SANUR PARADISE HOTEL (SPH). Camp didn't start until Tuesday evening, I got an extended overnight stay package and breakfast in the morning. I had the room all to myself that night which was really nice. The fact that there were about 1000 participants of this camp including the speakers and teachers, all the international guests had to stay at another hotel at INNA GRAND BALI BEACH HOTEL just next to SPH about 2 mins away, they provided suttle busses in between hotels. Had to move hotel the next morning. I woke up Tuesday morning with a smile on my face, feeling great and refreshed (I can almost remember how it felt like!), took a long shower, got myself ready, enjoyed the views as I walked down the stairs for a breakfast. I knew no one at the time... so I was having breakfast alone, absorbing the views around and just watching people, it felt good... though I wished I had someone to chat to.

HOTEL ROOM

HOTEL VIEWS

BREAKFAST LOUNGE

(Continuing updating again today, Thursday 03.08.06).

Music camp didn't start till Tuesday evening. 6:30pm - welcoming dinner. Chatted and tried to make new friends, too many, after a few minutes you wonder what their names were again, anyhow it was a great experience. Then it was followed by an Opening Ceremony where 1000 or more people gathered in the conference room (awesome!), Balinese traditional music and dancing were all happening at the begining, telling the story about God and creation, unique! It finished around 10pm, went back to my room, chatted abit more with my roommate, she was from Riau and apparently she could speak hokkian and Mandarin, a very nice lady.

6am Wednesday morning - woke up fresh and looking forward to the day! Devotion time, breakfast, morning worship, morning tea, classes and rehearsals, lunch, workshops, afternoon tea, break time, dinner, evening concerts. That would sum up all the activities we did everyday Wednesday to Friday, for Friday evening we had revival service with Rev. Stephen Tong as the preacher, followed by holy communion and closing ceremony.

Some of the topics I picked and did for my classes and workshops (if I still remember), were:

• Influence of post-modern music in church: Hot topic being discussed in the world in accord with the popularity of lifestyle being embraced by young people today: individualism, hedonism and ignorance. Discussing the meaning of post-modern, and the influence in church and also seeking solution to anticipate those influence especially in music.
• Problems in congregation singing: how to pick the right song to congregation's preference and event. Worship leader and accompaniments role in leading congregation to sing, especially in leading unfamiliar or difficult songs: melody, tempo and rhythm.
• How to lead a worship: For worship leaders; teaches about the function of worship leaders, and tips to enhance leadership in leading a worship to lead congregation into a worship experience to equip them for everyday life.
• Vocal group: How to organize and shape a vocal group, choosing the right repertoire and a vocal ensemble style in line with Christian character for service.
• Santuary choir: Understanding about the importance of Sanctuary Choir role in worship, where and how to choose the right repertoire for every church events and liturgies.
• Vocal - advance: In-depth analysis in voice mechanics, discussing knowledge of how to create beautiful and brilliant voice. Includes diction and expression.

We also did choir rehearsals (singing with other 1000 ppl, loved it, sounded YEEEAAAHH, now I could really imagine what it's like singing in heaven!), we got to meet the composers too!

[Music camp pictures to come]

When I got back alot of people asked, "...so, what did you learn, Jenny?" I honestly had hard times summarising them into a sentence or two. I did learn ALOT, not just the fact of learning, but also the fact of being reminded and rebuked altogether was a whole lot of amazing experiences for me. Music ministry is a whole lot more than just about music. My understanding of music would be irrelevant if my heart isn't right with God.

This weekend I get to share some choir stuff with choir members, so hopefully I prepare it well and they too can be blessed through it.

Ok, now just a bit of how my journey in Bali ended. I was supposed to be leaving on the Saturday, but couldn't resist Bali and didn't get enough of it, AND on the Sunday was Vera's birthday, they insisted I stayed, so I did.., I was pretty excited at that time, yeaayyy 1 more day! :D

After all those fun and excitement over the trip, it had to come to an end, I was finally flying home. Got really uncomfortable in my stomach and sick-feeling kicked in all the way on the plane. I didn't eat at all up there. Arrived in Sydney safely but (again) uncomfortably. I felt really really cold, wonder how Sydney could become so cold this time round, and I didn't have with me a thicker jacket, great!, so I just put up with it. Got home and collapsed on my bed without any delay, felt really sick and weak, slept all day, I didn't eat just drank lots of water, and I got lost track of time (jetlagged). And well... that spoilt it! Nonetheless, as I said... one of the best trips ever, I would really like to go back to Bali again one day.

Big thank yous go to: most of all..the Forever-Faithful-God; beloved IPC Randwick for funding the whole trip, the Layatas for the hospitality, care and love; and all my wonderful friends for your prayers and wishes. :)

I WOULDN'T KNOW...

I just LOVE salad and been having it for lunch for the past few weeks. You get a bread roll everytime you purchase the salad, I always go for wholemeal bread roll. And you get to arrange your own salad and pick the dressing, so I did, and I had lemon and lime dressing in my salad this time.

I wouldn't know..... how salty the bread roll was, if I hadn't had that lemon lime dressing. Before, it just tasted plain to me, well maybe abit salty, but not THAT salty.

And then I thought, maybe the same applies to our daily walk with Christ. God allows us to go through "stuff" in life for a bigger picture and understanding.

Now I know the bread roll is THAT salty!

RE: PROMISE PROMISE!!

Please bear with me for a little while longer re: my trip to Bali. In progress....

PROMISE PROMISE!!

I promised to post about my trip to Bali and the music camp thinge, and I still do keep it. Just that sickness had got in the way all week (the week I got back 26th June), found myself stuck in my bed feeling miserable. Glad the Bali virus is gone now, I'm all well and smiles. :)))))

I will come back on the next post, posting about the trip and everything that I still can recall, hopefully. I still miss Bali.... really do!

Also find it hard to blog these days, not so much of what to write on, it's more to how to write and WHEN!!! Busy busy busy....

'Till then........................................................................

DIA MENGERTI, DIA PERDULI

In times like this, we often need assurance, encouragements...

"Allah memakai tekanan hidup untuk menghasilkan keindahan karakter yang menyerupai Kristus di dalam diri kita. Roh Kudus akan memakainya untuk menciptakan diri kita ketabahan, sikap tahan uji dan harapan tatkala kesulitan menghampiri. Hampirilah Allah!"

Satu lagu yang sungguh menguatkan:

ALLAH PERDULI

Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi di dalam kehidupan ini
Satu perkara yang kusimpan dalam hati
Tiada satupun kan terjadi tanpa Allah perduli

(Chorus)
Allah mengerti Allah perduli
Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah dibiarkanNya
Ku bergumul sendiri s'bab Allah mengerti

THE MOST LOVING THING...

I'm sitting here, thinking, preparing, praying for the hardest thing that I will have to do in the near future, for the thing that weighs me down so badly up to this day! I'm scared of what might turn out to be, not sure how to say it so I don't hurt the person, considering the tough things he might be going through right now as well (trying to be in his shoes) - but I need to do this, it will do him good.

Probably what I'm trying to say is that - sometimes in life, the most loving thing to do can "seem" to be the most dare/mean thing to do, especially to those people you claim that you love. Rephrase: The most unloving thing can sometimes be the most loving thing you can do to someone (D told me). So I think this is what I need to do. Scared? Yes! I'm just not a daring person, I tend to feel sorry (that's my weakness!).

I'm now pushed to the edge, no more putting up. Dear God, help me so I can be strong, and help the person so he can be strong as well as understanding.

So Lord to You I call... just can't do this alone. It's too hard Lord!

C-KY (read: sickie)

Woke up this morning feeling not 100%, quite weak, stomach pain, dizzyness - it's probably the flu. Before more germs get spreaded out into the air and to avoid more germs intake, I decided to call in sick. Here I am at home, trying to rest, but find it hard to stay in bed, it makes me dizzier. Instead, trying to write some music and catch up on some other stuff. By the way... it's feeling sooo much better in the stomach, thank God!!

Work's been sooooo quiet - like.... no work all day? and get paid!!! It's not as good as it sounds though, I could not stand the boredom, had to beg for some work from my managers, even they're kinda running out of work hehehe, I don't understand...., then maybe we all can bludge instead.... =)

Counting down my days... I cannot wait to go to Bali. I really need it must say. The last time I went overseas was 2 years ago!!! Now I can't wait for this one, planning to fly on the 17th June for 7 day trip. I will have the first couple of days reserved for 'holiday' before the Music Camp commences on the 20th for the next 4 days. What's on my mind first thing I get there is (it won't be a surprise to some)... definitely getting a MASSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ooohhh dying for it, really am!!! The one that looks like this... (ooohhh paradise..........).

I guess it's alright to pamper yourself once in a while, for me it's like once in 2 years??!! Btw also will be meeting up with Vera, a dear & beloved sister back in old days, alot to catch up on... yeay!!!

So I'll keep on counting my days......1 month away! (well actually... plus a few days).

Now I'm feeling dizzy again....too much counting and certainly too much dreaming. Daaa....

THE MUSICIAN'S PRAYER

By. Vanessa L. Miller

To God, who created every song, note, and key

All glory and praise, I offer to Thee

Before the clap of the hand, or the tap of the shoe

The concept of rhythm, it started with You

You composed melodies for the birds to sing

And anointed their songs with the joy that they bring

So before You, the Author of music, I bow

I’m asking that You would bless me now

With the understanding of this perfect gift

This ministry You have blessed me with

That Your glory will always be my goal

That You will be the musician within my soul

Whether it be with my voice, my hands, or my feet

With wind, strings, pipes, or a steady beat

Without Your Spirit to touch and anoint

The sweetest sounds become mere noise

But to play like David, to calm and to soothe

And most of all, to be pleasing to You

Let this be my motive and the source of my drive

That Your name will ever be glorified

Please let my praise be a sacrifice

Offered to You, no pretense or disguise

Let my life be a song more precious than words

Sweeter to you than any note ever heard

Let it ring out strong, and true to the end

I ask in Jesus’ name, Amen.

HOW WEIRD ARE YOU? (HAHA...)

You Are 20% Weird

Not enough to scare other people...But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

WHAT TIME OF DAY ARE YOU?

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

I'M GOING...

I need a prayer support....

It's finally a YES, I'm flying to Bali in a couple of month's time to attend the 18th WCCMC for a whole week. Visa was granted, the process went smoothly.

Now, sitting here, wondering.... what did I do to deserve such opportunity. How my heart felt humbled by the goodness of our marvelous God, through this event, would be able to see, to learn, to observe, to be equipped for a better plan. Some of my close friends know where my heart is, that is 'one day' to serve Him in a full-time music ministry, someday somewhere! I never knew how/where to start. Maybe going to this music camp can be a stepping stone, to be able to meet people around the world who have the same passion in God's praises through the gift of music.

I'm kinda EXCITED........... YEAY! (hehe) Never been to Bali before, ever!

WISE WOMAN

I just came back from lunch with Mavis, it's always great to be able to catch up with her, after such a long time (seemed like it). She always knows the right thing to say to others, such a wise woman of God.

CARELESS

I officially dropped my new mobile on the ground for its very first time *sigh*.

Why couldn't it wait for at least a year before it's got scratches on it!

BEHIND THE NAME

Went into a gift shop after work today, I found a keyring with my name and its meaning on it.

~ Jenny ~

Meaning: God's Gift

Origin: Hebrew

She is kind, courteous and understanding, possessing charm and good taste, showing mercy and love to those less fortunate than herself, clever and talented, she's great in business and dealing with people, such a capacity to give and share, appreciating the value of friendship.

UNCERTAINTIES

Hello....

I haven't been having much to do at work since this morning. May be it's a good time to blog again, or never for the next few months.

Sometimes I feel so lost in my own busyness in life, too busy, sometimes it makes me numb! I don't seem to care for other people except for myself and my tight schedules. What-do-I-need-to-do-next kinda thing. When I get home after a long tiring day, I just lock myself up alone in my room, resting and reflecting. Not much of socialising. Even I don't feel like talking to my brother. Not good...

Although, lately I try to 'go out there' abit more, try to enjoy my busyness without being so wrapped up by it, physically and emotionally.

Alot of people are trying to achieve success in life, they don't care for people around them. Which as christians, we should care for other people, reach out.

Alright, now another thing...apart from many other things :)

I'm still waiting for my PR to come out, not sure when. Hmmm, I was having lunch with Irma the other Sunday, and she asked me, "...what will you miss the most here in Sydney, if you have to end up going home (Indo)?"

I thought for a while and said: "...it would be 'my close friends'...". For me, I learnt heaps about relationships when I was here. Before, friends to me were just 'friends', people outside me - not related in whatsoever ways. Now, I am able to view friends as people who are part of me. I came to understand how I needed them so much to go on. Especially when I had no one, no immediate family or relatives around here in Sydney. Friends are my family.

Now if I think back to that question, WHAT IF I have to go home, WHAT IF my PR isn't gonna be successful.., I think I'll take all my friends home with me hehe, only if that's possible!

Actually, I'm just anticipating the worst scenario. Out of so many uncertainties, only one thing that is certain - God holds tomorrow!

When I came here in Australia, I thought I was gonna live here forever, because studying at that time seemed to be a long way to go. Now I've finished what I came to do, just realised, this is not my permanent home, Indo is. Though would love to stay here, if my PR turns out fine. Fingers X'ed (= cross-ed not christ-ed; not like x'mas = christ-mas?).

Now I'm living in uncertainties, but I'm certain, He'll put me exactly where He wants me to be.