WISE WOMAN

I just came back from lunch with Mavis, it's always great to be able to catch up with her, after such a long time (seemed like it). She always knows the right thing to say to others, such a wise woman of God.

CARELESS

I officially dropped my new mobile on the ground for its very first time *sigh*.

Why couldn't it wait for at least a year before it's got scratches on it!

BEHIND THE NAME

Went into a gift shop after work today, I found a keyring with my name and its meaning on it.

~ Jenny ~

Meaning: God's Gift

Origin: Hebrew

She is kind, courteous and understanding, possessing charm and good taste, showing mercy and love to those less fortunate than herself, clever and talented, she's great in business and dealing with people, such a capacity to give and share, appreciating the value of friendship.

UNCERTAINTIES

Hello....

I haven't been having much to do at work since this morning. May be it's a good time to blog again, or never for the next few months.

Sometimes I feel so lost in my own busyness in life, too busy, sometimes it makes me numb! I don't seem to care for other people except for myself and my tight schedules. What-do-I-need-to-do-next kinda thing. When I get home after a long tiring day, I just lock myself up alone in my room, resting and reflecting. Not much of socialising. Even I don't feel like talking to my brother. Not good...

Although, lately I try to 'go out there' abit more, try to enjoy my busyness without being so wrapped up by it, physically and emotionally.

Alot of people are trying to achieve success in life, they don't care for people around them. Which as christians, we should care for other people, reach out.

Alright, now another thing...apart from many other things :)

I'm still waiting for my PR to come out, not sure when. Hmmm, I was having lunch with Irma the other Sunday, and she asked me, "...what will you miss the most here in Sydney, if you have to end up going home (Indo)?"

I thought for a while and said: "...it would be 'my close friends'...". For me, I learnt heaps about relationships when I was here. Before, friends to me were just 'friends', people outside me - not related in whatsoever ways. Now, I am able to view friends as people who are part of me. I came to understand how I needed them so much to go on. Especially when I had no one, no immediate family or relatives around here in Sydney. Friends are my family.

Now if I think back to that question, WHAT IF I have to go home, WHAT IF my PR isn't gonna be successful.., I think I'll take all my friends home with me hehe, only if that's possible!

Actually, I'm just anticipating the worst scenario. Out of so many uncertainties, only one thing that is certain - God holds tomorrow!

When I came here in Australia, I thought I was gonna live here forever, because studying at that time seemed to be a long way to go. Now I've finished what I came to do, just realised, this is not my permanent home, Indo is. Though would love to stay here, if my PR turns out fine. Fingers X'ed (= cross-ed not christ-ed; not like x'mas = christ-mas?).

Now I'm living in uncertainties, but I'm certain, He'll put me exactly where He wants me to be.

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN

I went into my classroom
Ready for another year at school.
I didn't want the work,
Just wanted to hang and be cool.

I had on new clothes,
New sneakers on my feet.
I was there for class on time,
Went to the back and took my seat.

Yeah, I'm moving up,
I'm already grown.
Soon I'll be graduating,
And out on my own.

I talked to some of my friends,
We were all having fun.
Said some things I shouldn't have said.
Did stuff I shouldn't have done.

I knew I was different..
I felt God touch my heart,
I knew I should set a standard,
But then I'd be set apart.

Walking to the bus,
I was not looking for strength.
I heard the car tires screeching,
But now it's too late.

I'm standing in this room,
And I can see the heavenly gate.
Oh no! I never prayed.
I thought I had time to get it straight!

An angel walked to me,
He had a book in his hand.
I knew it was the Book of Life,
When would this dream end?

I told him my name,
And he began to look.
Then he looked at me sadly and said,
Your name is not in this book.

Angel, this is a dream,
No, I can't be dead!
He closed the book and turned away,
He whispered - You cannot proceed ahead.

No...no this can't be real,
Angel, you can't turn me away.
Let me talk to God,
Maybe He'll let me stay.

He led me to the gate,
Jesus came to me.
He did not let me in but said,
Beloved, what is your need?

Jesus, I cried, please,
Don't cast me away from you.
Tears ran down his face as He said,
You knew what you needed to do.

Lord, please I'm young,
I never thought I would die.
I thought I'd have plenty of time,
Death caught me by surprise.

Lord, I went to church,
Please Jesus, I believe.
He said you would not accept me,
My love you would not receive.

Lord, there were too many hypocrites.
They weren't being true.
He took a step back and asked,
What does that have to do with you?

Lord, my family claimed to be saved,
They weren't real, you know.
He said, I died for you,
Now I have to go.

I fell to my knees crying to Him,
Lord, I planned to be real tomorrow.
I couldn't make Him understand,
I had never felt such sorrow.

Then it hit me hard, I said,
Lord, where will I go?
He looked into my eyes and said,
My child, you already know.

Please Jesus, I begged,
The place is so hot.
It seemed to trouble and grieve Him,
He whispered, Depart from me,
I know you not.

Lord, you're supposed to be love,
How can you send me to damnation?
He replied, With your mouth you said you loved me,
But each day you rejected my salvation.

With that in an instant,
Day turned into night.
I never knew such torture could be,
Now too late, I know the Bible is right.

If I can tell you anything,
Hell has no age.
It is a place of torture,
Separated from God and full of rage.

You know, I thought it was a funny joke,
But this one thing is true.
If you never accept Jesus Christ,
Hell is waiting for you.

So please, ask Him into your heart.

--Author Unknown

I LOVE THESE ILLUSTRATIONS

Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there.

Josh Billings

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A chaplain was speaking to a soldier on a cot in a hospital. "You have lost an arm in the great cause," he said. "No," said the soldier with a smile. "I didn't lose it--I gave it." In that same way, Jesus did not lose His life. He gave it purposefully.

Source unknown

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I used to ask God if He would come and help me. Then I asked if I could come and help Him. Finally I ended by asking God to do His own work through me.

J. Hudson Taylor

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POEMS

Five Loaves and Two Fishes

God uses what you have to fill a need;
which you never could have filled.
God uses where you are to take you;
where you never could have gone.
God uses what you can do to accomplish;
what you never could have done.
God uses who you are to let you become;
who you never could have been.

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I share Einstein's affirmation that anyone who is not lost on the rapturous awe at the power and glory of the mind behind the universe "is as good as a burnt out candle."

Madeleine L'Engle

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There are four ages of man: 1) when you believe in Santa Claus, 2) when you don't believe in Santa Claus, 3) when you are Santa Claus, 4) when you look like Santa Claus.

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J.S. Bach said, "All music should have no other end and aim than the glory of God and the soul's refreshment; where this is not remembered there is no real music but only a devilish hub-bub."

He headed his compositions: "J.J." "Jesus Juva" which means "Jesus help me."

He ended them "S.D.G." "Soli Dei gratia" which means "To God alone the praise."

J. S. Bach

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Martin Luther said, "The devil takes flight at the sound of music, just as he does at the words of theology, and for this reason the prophets always combined theology and music, the teaching of truth and the chanting of Psalms and hymns."

"After theology, I give the highest place and greatest honor to music."

Martin Luther


.... and there's more! I'll just keep on reading..., they're good!!!