UPDATE ON JEN--JEN

Hi readers out there, sorry about my dissapearing from blogging for the past 1.5 months (if you've been wondering). I've been so much busy, juggling with 2 jobs has been tough and challenging. Though I thank God for every opportunity in life He's given me, every one of it. :)

Not much I can update you really, I'm still same old.

But umm... I came across a few incidents these past few weeks where people just commented about myself, on the things I do, the way I look, something really discouraging. I came home feeling down, and thinking... should I be affected by these comments? Should I just ignore them? But then.... I realised it is simply not my choice to ignore or to take them seriously, it just happened to be very discouraging already the moment they said it to you, honestly! I don't aspect people to always say good things to me, but I didn't see the necessity to comment on something about me when it's simply not true!!! They appeared to be joking, but they never apologised (something like... "just teasing you/just joking"), and by the look of their face, they really meant it, but in a joking way. It's more like... "spiritual blackmailing". Tried to make me feel insecure of the things I do? Jealous of me? Or...? I don't know...

Though I learn something for myself which I promise I won't do to others (I hope I won't, if I accidently do, I will apologise), that is NOT TO SAY ANYTHING WHEN IT IS NOT HELPING THAT PERSON AT ALL. Perhaps our mouth operates 2x faster than our mind, we say things without thinking it through firsthand.

Maybe I'm taking this too personally, but it's getting to much to bear.

However, I'm fine now, I have surrendered everything to God, may He guide my heart to the right place that is to keep dwelling on His promises and truth. People can say anything they want, but God knows my heart better (much more than I do).

Until then...