PUZZLED

I'm not sure if you guys feel the same as I do..

Often I try to grab something in life (which I am pretty sure I can and am able to achieve it), but I often lose it in the end! Contrarily, when I give up trying.. it comes my way.

I seriously don't know what to do..

I guess when you wait "unconciously", you have less expectations than when you actually reach out to the things you want in life with effort.

Well for me, I'm kind of puzzled by what God really wants, sometimes He closes doors and opens them (it feels like it). Not blaming God here though, I know I should be thankful in any circumstances (as what was preached today at Sunday AM service). So, I surrender fully to what God really intends to do with my life, afterall it's all His.